Hello world...how are you today? I'm fine thanks. I am quite tired though. The Miranda has been working very hard every day. Work sucks. My feet hurt and I'm sad. I'm not sad because my feet hurt, well, not entirely, I'm sad because I miss Tony. I did get to talk to him Sunday, It was awesome, but it made me cry just about every time I thought about him since then...it's hard to hold it in. Sometimes I just don't want to hold it in, I just want to let it all out, you know, but I really don't want others to see me cry like that, because most of them know my situation and hopefully they know how I'm trying to be strong, because I have to keep telling myself "it's only a fraction of a fraction of time that he will be gone, then I get him for the rest of my life." I mean come on, we've been together for over 3 years, 41 months, specifically. He's only going to be gone for less than 4. How can I not keep my chin up and be strong? Compared to the rest of my life, this is nothing. But holy crap it was so good to hear his voice. I miss that so much. I miss everything. I miss him hogging the bed at night. I miss hearing him say "make me dinner..." I even miss him yelling "mother fucker!" or "fucking spawn-rapers!" at his game all the time. God i just miss him. ALOT.

Sadness Flows...

Well, the first sad thing that is happening to me is that my Tony left me. It makes me sad. He left on August 15th...technically...on the 14th, we had to drive him to Lansing to the Quality Suites, because the army wanted him there over night so then the next morning when they want him up at 5 am so they can go to the MEPS center (that's where they give them their physical and such...) they will totally be there when they want them too very early the next morning. But whatever the case, on the 15th, he got shipped off to the air port at about 1pm, and we got to go see him...even though his flight wasn't going to leave until 5pm, but we had to go, so I cried of course, it was sad, and even Tony Watkins asked me if I was going to be alright. And go figure, the next day, I was sitting in my room trying to get my mind off him by cleaning out the junk drawer and my phone goes off saying I have a message from a funny phone number...so I call my voice mail and it was totally Tony. Go Figure. But my phone didn't ring!! IT'S NOT MY FAULT!!! Anyways, on-ward with the sadness...

I'm sorry David, but my Ginger Marrie was supposed to come home Friday night/Saturday morning. And as I've told at least 2 people, the whole "Ginger come home" thing isn't just for me, it's for her, I tried to look at the entire thing in 3rd person...I want Ginger to be happy, and for the past I don't know how long, Ginger has not been happy. And it is very possible that David is just saying whatever the hell he can to keep you there, he may promise that he'll change, and it will be different, PROMISE PROMISE PROMISE. And that may last for a week. Maybe even two. Then the Ginger will say "Shit, I should have taken that flight when I had the chance. Now I'm broke and homeless and in a horrible relationship with an ass hole."

But would you like my personal opinion? And I even hope David reads this some day. My opinion is that David, I hope you do change. I hope you can live up to what Ginger deserves. Because all I want is for Ginger to be happy, and guess what? She told me for quite some time that she wasn't and it was because of you. Maybe you should get your head out of your selfish ass and move back towards Michigan. Do you know anybody in Ohio? How about Indiana? God, even Pennsylvania! So then your stubborn ass won't be in Michigan like you apparently don't want to be, but you're also not keeping Ginger too far away from the people that she cares about OTHER than you! Don't be so greedy! And I'm not saying that just because I want to see her, what about her mom? Neil? Gramma? Everybody, especially since Gramma Schneider isn't doing too well lately, QUIT BEING SO GREEDY WITH THE GINGER! LEARN TO SHARE HER WITH HER FAMILY! JUST BECAUSE YOU DON'T GET ALONG WITH SOMETHING IN MICHIGAN DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO BE AS FAR AWAY AS POSSIBLE!! MICHIGAN WILL NEVER DISAPPEAR SO GET OVER IT!

*sigh* OK. I feel a bit better now. Ginger Marrie, all I want is for you to be happy, and if David does it then I want you to stay with him. Not like it's even my choice, but just do what makes you happy. You know I'm always here for you. We all love you Ginger Marrie.

Bahamas!!

Well, we got back from our honeymoom on Friday, and it was a blast! Last Monday, we left this crap-hole of Michigan and went to Miami and somewhere handy 2:00pm we got on the Royal Carabean ship "Majesty of the Sea"...Since on Friday i made an "Urgent Care" trip due to a pain-ridden kidney, I had gotten an antibiotic called Cepro that made me sick, despite following the directions and eating as much as i can so i don't get sick...but i was sick. From Friday to Monday, totally woozie the entire time. But then, Monday morning, I started a different antibiotic that Rebecca gave me...it is called Keflex...that stuff didn't make me sick...well, technically...The boat made me sick Moday, so i broke down and got some drememean to make me feel better and i did for the rest of the week. Awesome.

Ok, enough about that, now for the actual trip. Tuesday, in Nassau, we swam with dolphins...it was really spiffy, we danced, kissed, hugged, fed and "flew" with them...and i say "flew" as in 2 dolphins came up behind you as you laid on your stomach on the water and they pushed you so you were basically flying through the water. it was really cool; salty, but really cool.
Then Wednesday, in Coco Cay, we did this full-speed jet ski tour...we would go like 50 mph then catch up to the guide and he'd tell us about something then we'd do it again...the ocean was like 87 degrees...it was so nice.
Then Thursday, in Key West, we went snuba diving...i will explain: It's a cross between snorkeling and scuba diving...you have a mouth piece with a 30 ft. tube that goes up to a raft that has the tanks on it. So instead of lugging an air tank, it's more free and non-restricting. Which rocks. And we saw those things that killed the croc hunter...sting ray or whatever...we saw like 3 of them. and lots of Coral. FUN FUN!
Then Friday we went home. It was nice to go home, i missed my cats. But it was still a blast, I got a bit of a tan, and I got a massage, and a pedicure too. AWESOME. Sadly, Tony had to fall asleep in the sun by the pool for like an hour and oh, go figure, he's like black now. Friggin great.
Well, whatever, it was still fun. Anyways, I'm gonna go now, to the sso to change my name. :P

Here's a question:

One of my friends who came all the way from Florida came to my wedding last Saturday, and he met this girl, I won't name her name, and she was telling me even before he left that she liked him...and he told me that he liked her...but he has a girlfriend down in Florida...along with the fact that he lives somewhere handy 1500 miles away...my friends girlfriend in Florida is kinda weird, she's nice and all, but I personally don't think she treats him the way he deserves, but i can't hate her, I've barely met her...but my friend here in Michigan and him would fit together so nicely, but that's also just my opinion...BUT my entire question to my HUGE reading audience...(cough) should they be together? My friend in Fl. could up and leave Fl. without blinking.

THIS MESSAGE IS FOR MY FRIEND IN FLORIDA...You should come home, there is somebody here that would treat you right, treat you like an equal, not look down on you as if they know 100 times more than you do, and "holy shit, I'm so much smarter than everybody, even though I'm only 24 yrs old, but i am so wise and know more than Buddha and Jesus and Einstein but hey, like i am totally the shit..." no offence chikerita if you're reading this, but it's true, go sky diving or whatever and let him go...

OK, gotta go, going to a house with like AWESOME air conditioning...it's like 35 degrees 24/7...
ADIOAS

BOB DOLE LOVES...wait a sec...

Didn't I already use that as a title? Ah, whatever, anyways, in new news, we moved on the first of June to Ann Arbor, it's big, but its nice, Rebecca and Will are currently paying our bills until we get jobs and such, but part of the condition that i made if i was going to move all the way out here, was that i don't work until i want to...but since i owe so much money, i think I'm going to actually kinda try to get a job at Meijer gas station...1st and 2nd shift available! Anyway, we finally got all the bridesmaids dresses done, and as of Sunday, we got all the groomsman's tuxes done and ordered...they will be in by July 12th, my dress is currently being worked on, needed to be shortened and then taken in on the sides, and gingers dress will be in soon too. I actually need to call Davids Bridal, figure out when it will be done. My Ginger Marrie will be coming home at 5 am on the Thursday before the wedding, I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!! WOO!! Anyways, not really sure what else to write about, so I won't, it's not like anything new is going on other than what was specified above...anyways, I'll go, Latin Kings of Comedy is on so BYE.

...and we're back...

Well, lets see, currently, at this exact point in time, it is 10:56 on Saturday March 24th, Tony's friend Tony (...) is sleeping on the couch, my Tony is sleeping in our room, and i'm trying to type really quietly...And in other news, Titan finally got sold, we are now WJG Enterprises Molding Company...(try saying WJG 3 times fast) which is nice, no raise yet, but i'm still hopeful...(my) Tony and I got a call yesterday from Dowding Industries in Eaton Rapids, and we have a job interview at 9 am on Wednesday. They told me they would be paying me more than $9 an hour, which is awesome, since i only make $8.85 right now, and that includes my shift premium...so hopefully Tony and I could get a good 1st shift job together.

The wedding plans are coming along nicely, i have a dress, and Tony has his groomsmen...which brings me to my bride's maids...the lovely Ginger Marrie, and as soon as I call her and ask her, hopefully Charlotte, and then there is Sarah. DO NOT GET ME WRONG, I LOVE THE SARAH...but she's making me nervious...for a bit of back ground info, she has been here since earily to mid June last year...she still has no job, yet i know she has tried atleast a little bit, even if it really is only a LITTLE bit...she has lost her appartment, she was living with Jimmy, but that wasn't a good idea...too much drama, and personally i think way too much irresponsibility...not on Jimmy's part, but from Sarah and Joey and all there friends...from what i was told, Tom basically gets Hayley more often than Sarah does, since she isn't staying with Jimmy anymore, i think she is staying with her friend from Butternut Creek, Casie, which is probably worse...all i've ever seen happen over there is parties and alcohol and who knows what else...Sarah spends all her state-help (cash assistance, food card...) money on stupid stuff, she could save the cash assistance money maybe for a deposit on an appartment...she should not be picky on where she gets a job, if it's McDonalds, who cares. Atleast it's income. She needs to see that she is being stupid, she can't just go party all the time, she's 21, has a daughter, and no future. Sarah, you are my friend, i love you to death, but if this is going to impact my wedding, like you know, "oops, i spent what little money i had on alcohol and *** instead of buying my brides maid dress even though you gave me the color for it 8 months ago and i promised i'd make sure i'd have it by april...my bad..."

I'm hoping that Sarah will just stumble apon this or something, or maybe one of her friends wil just walk across this...maybe they'd say "Hey, Sarah, read this." and then maybe she'd see why i don't hardly ever call her. I can't help her unless she will help herself. I've bent over backwards for her many times. I just can't do it again. I have known Sarah since i was 4, but if she were to compromise my wedding, i don't know if i could forgive her.

...and we're back...

Well, lets see, currently, at this exact point in time, it is 10:56 on Saturday March 24th, Tony's friend Tony (...) is sleeping on the couch, my Tony is sleeping in our room, and i'm trying to type really quietly...And in other news, Titan finally got sold, we are now WJG Enterprises Molding Company...(try saying WJG 3 times fast) which is nice, no raise yet, but i'm still hopeful...(my) Tony and I got a call yesterday from Dowding Industries in Eaton Rapids, and we have a job interview at 9 am on Wednesday. They told me they would be paying me more than $9 an hour, which is awesome, since i only make $8.85 right now, and that includes my shift premium...so hopefully Tony and I could get a good 1st shift job together.

The wedding plans are coming along nicely, i have a dress, and Tony has his groomsmen...which brings me to my bride's maids...the lovely Ginger Marrie, and as soon as I call her and ask her, hopefully Charlotte, and then there is Sarah. DO NOT GET ME WRONG, I LOVE THE SARAH...but she's making me nervious...for a bit of back ground info, she has been here since earily to mid June last year...she still has no job, yet i know she has tried atleast a little bit, even if it really is only a LITTLE bit...she has lost her appartment, she was living with Jimmy, but that wasn't a good idea...too much drama, and personally i think way too much irresponsibility...not on Jimmy's part, but from Sarah and Joey and all there friends...from what i was told, Tom basically gets Hayley more often than Sarah does, since she isn't staying with Jimmy anymore, i think she is staying with her friend from Butternut Creek, Casie, which is probably worse...all i've ever seen happen over there is parties and alcohol and who knows what else...Sarah spends all her state-help (cash assistance, food card...) money on stupid stuff, she could save the cash assistance money maybe for a deposit on an appartment...she should not be picky on where she gets a job, if it's McDonalds, who cares. Atleast it's income. She needs to see that she is being stupid, she can't just go party all the time, she's 21, has a daughter, and no future. Sarah, you are my friend, i love you to death, but if this is going to impact my wedding, like you know, "oops, i spent what little money i had on alcohol and *** instead of buying my brides maid dress even though you gave me the color for it 8 months ago and i promised i'd make sure i'd have it by april...my bad..."

I'm hoping that Sarah will just stumble apon this or something, or maybe one of her friends wil just walk across this...maybe they'd say "Hey, Sarah, read this." and then maybe she'd see why i don't hardly ever call her. I can't help her unless she will help herself. I've bent over backwards for her many times. I just can't do it again. I have known Sarah since i was 4, but if she were to compromise my wedding, i don't know if i could forgive her.

Well then...

Guess I havn't been on here in like forever...well then...what's new in Miranda's world...well, first off, I am still sadly working at Titan, I'm hoping a whole hell of alot that I can get a new job hopefully soon...Oh, yeah, and I'm getting married on July 14th 2007! Hell yeah, though some people in Tony's family don't seem to be as thrilled...they all think he's too young and that he may be ruining his life by marrying me now at his young age. Yeah, I'm young too, but i don't care as much...I'm 20, it's about that time. I got a really really pretty ring, so maybe here soon I'll get a picure on here...if it's already on here, then never mind, I already did it. But I NEED to go to bed because Rebecca just called me and said she needs me to watch the kids at 4. Which sucks. So goodbye, I'll be back later.

Everybody go buy a car!

The reason I say that is this: If you work for a company that makes something that could go from high demand, to low demand, they will lay you off. Like car parts for example...sometimes sales are up, sometimes they are down. Right now they are down. Which means everybody who works for a company that makes those car parts, aren't needed to make the parts. Like me. 4 FRIGGIN WEEKS. Apparently, we are not needed for 4 weeks. Ok, I am not needed for 4 weeks. Jimmy will be working atleast tonight, I believe they will be laying off everybody eventually, but not yet...4 weeks of no money. I already have very little food in my house, how am I suposed to put food in my house with no money? How am I supposed to feed my cats with no money? How is this suposed to work? I NEED A NEW JOB THAT WON'T LAY YOU OFF EVERY 2 OR 3 MONTHS WHEN THEY AREN'T BUSY. This sucks. 4 weeks of being home not making money. I need to find something to do.

BUT IF EVERYBODY GOES OUT AND BUYS A CAR, I CAN GO BACK TO WORK AND MAKE MONEY! GO BUY A CAR! NOW!

TAKE VITAMINS

Vitamins are good for you. They keep you healthy. I did not take that advise when I should've. I am sick. 2 days ago it felt like somebody had rubbed sand paper all over my throat. But other than that, basically the right side of my face has had it the worst...my right eye does nothing but water, and my right side is really congested. I feel like crap. And working every day while feeling like crap makes me feel even more like crap. This sucks. Take your dang vitamins. Wash your hands. Don't kiss sick people. Don't lick doorknobs. Or grope a doorknob then lick your hand. Don't let people cough in your face. Besides, people who cough in your face aren't very nice. How rude.




It is Frontier Days here in my small town, and just in case it's not just Ginger or somebody who knows me that is reading this, Frontier Days is just a time when people sell more "fair" type food and little crappy expensive nick-naks, and I think there is a rodeo tonight, and there's a parade tomorrow, which I have to be in; since daddy owns the local bycicle shop, he ended up getting a spot in the parade and so we (daddy, momma, cousin Matt, probably other cousins, local kids who go to the shop alot, Tony, and Me, and maybe, if he'll let me, we'll get Sarah and Hayley involved...) will be riding our bikes in the parade. Apparently Tony and I (according to daddy) are going to be riding the tandum (2-seater bike) and towing the sign that says the name of the bike shop on it with phone number, ect. I'm not sure if I am going to be comfortable riding with Tony though, not because I don't trust him, but I know that it is hard to be the "driver", expecially with the extra weight...since it's going to be 2 people; it's hard to steer. But tonight we'll be going over to my dads to figure out of we can do it or not, or maybe we'll just be riding our bikes seperately. I don't know yet. I'm tired. I think I'll go to bed now.

my thumbs hurt :(

Hello, people who don't really read my blog...it is I, the totally awesome Miranda once again here to save the world....or not....Anyways, I know it's been forever since I've actually gotten a chance to be on here, and I know nobody really reads this anyway, but like the totally spifftastic ginger marrie once said, "my life should be a book, this stuff should be written down!!!" So I am doing so...not a whole lot has happend, accept for these few things:

* Sarah and Hayley came home beginning of June...not sure if I've told you that already...but that's not the point...the point is that she went down to Texas for 10 days...and aloud Tom to have the benefit of the doubt in Illinois to have Hayley for that period of time...well, needless to say, Tom was an ass hole and decided that Sarah couldn't have Hayley back...this was all in July...well, somewhere around August 20th, Sarah finally went down to accidentally go steal Hayley back...and now they are both here...Oh yeah, and Sarah got into Butternut Creek, which is awesome, and she's going to work first, and getting paid for it, and the same people doing the work first thing is also going to help her graduate. Which rocks.

* I got hired in at Titan on August 7th. So instead of making $7.90 an hour, I make $8.40 an hour...until like either 60 or 90 days then I get another 50 cents...oh yeah...And I think...unofficially...as of September 1st, Titan was (un)officially under new management...We sold the place FINALLY so I think they took over on the 1st. WOW.

*Tony's birthday is the 12th. I'm not sure what the hell I'm even going to get him, or what we will do, but I have what, 11...10 days to figure that out? GREAT. Anyways, he wants a new cordless power drill thingy that gonna cost the poor, but totally awesome Miranda like $55 or more. Depends on if I want the less crappy one, or the even lesser crappy one...not sure how crappy or un-crappy I'm willing to go...and he mentioned a movie...IF YOU HAVE ANY IDEAS FOR HIS 18TH BIRTHDAY, LET ME K NOW...he didn't really seemed interested in a strip club...Sarah and I said that first thing-thinking that that's what every 18-year-old guy would want...but he kinda made a funny face at that so hey, fine with me.

* We finally got cable and internet at the house...oh yeah, and a phone line, it's quite nice being able to stay home and play on Rebecca's lap top...it's still kind of hers, she still has to erase all her crap on here....then it can be ours...oh yeah.

* Still haven't gotten that darn tatoo, can't afford it untill Tony gets his awesome job....which HE BETTER GET LIKE THE DAY AFTER HIS 18TH BIRTHDAY...but some day...I will...

And I had a thought...eh, Ginger, I'll just tell you later...anyways...I'm going to go play somewhere else now....fingers hurt from yesterday...I burnt my fingers while foaming at a press....and my thumbs hurt horribly from pressing so hard in the little creases of the foam to make it all stay down...my thumb nails are bruised...or the skin under the nails...thumbs are quite sore....ok I'm going now...BYE

I love me


THE TOTALLY, FRIGGIN AWESOME MIRANDA

"That's Hot..."

Well, as of my last blog, for all of you who actually reads this, I got an appartment. GO ME!!! I live 3 business down Lincoln from Lawerence...I have people down stairs from me that smoke alot of pot. Nice. It's just a one bedroom because that's all tony and i need...my cats are there, and i have no washer or dryer, but that's ok, my momma and daddy love me...i only pay $375 a month, and i have to pay for gas...and that's it...awesome for me...........

And in other news, Ginger's sister doesn't even send her father pictures of the baby! or so i hear...that's not good...jessica, what the heck? drop us a line, i want to see the baby!!!

and in other other news, somebody else close to the family is having a baby...aimed in march...Charlotte! not that i'm suposed to say anything, but like who really reads this other than people who already know? exactly.

and in other other other news, sarah is pretty.

so ha.

ok i'm done. have a plesant 4th 'o' july...no blowing up your hands...

RED

Well, I would just like to say that I'm in the market for an apartment right now, there is this REALLY spiffy one here in town that I want, I'm waiting for the guy to call me back today or tomorrow to let me know if I get it or not. It'll be totally awesome. And as soon as I get that crap all settled out, this is a picture of the next tattoo I want to get, except instead of purple, it'll be red. Which will be awesome as well. Just thought I'd let you all know, but I'm tired now, so I'm going to bed. GOOD NIGHT

Well then...

Alright, in the wonderful world of Miranda's life, this is what's new since my last blog...I did get a new job, finally, I do work 3rd shift at Titan Plastics, and it's actually pretty fun. MOST of the people don't suck there, only one or 2 bitches...anyways, other than that, Rebecca gave her 30 days notice to her land lord like a day or 2 ago, so I now have less than 30 days to get my own apartment. Which is proving to be kind of difficult...and surprisingly, money isn't quite the problem. I think that these land lords are seeing that I've only been working at Titan for 3 weeks and they are nervous...but I'm sure I'll find something. Rebecca is moving to Bellevue temporarily until Butternut Creek becomes available, so we'll see what's going on with that later. Hopefully everything will work out WITHOUT me having to live in my truck for a day or so.
Oh yeah, speaking of my truck, it kind of died yesterday, whatever is wrong with it (we're still working on that issue) fuel is not getting to my engine. No, it's not the fuel pumps, duh, we just replaced those in the fall. It's not the little plug thing *same idea as a fuse* that send electricity to my fuel pumps, so it could be either the brain, or something else, but I don't remember what my dad said it could be. I forgot. Oh well, I'll get going now, so BYE.

EEK!

I have good news!!! I was looking through the shopping guide on the dining room table this morning, and guess what! I found a bunch of job things on there...so I wrote them down and called one about something that said "Customer Services/General Help $602.50/wk and up no experience needed call for one on one interview" so I know have an interview for tomorrow morning at 10:15 am! And it's in south Lansing, so I wouldn't mind driving there, since it'll be a lot less than what I'm driving now...and plus, I think it said the $602 was just part time so I wouldn't mind working that crap...plus it's a regular day job...which is totally awesome...I am so excited for tomorrow! I'll have to make myself look very pretty!!! YAY!!!

And in other news, nothing. Except for this week at Pizza Hut we're going to be screwed..."Trivor the driver" kind of quit on very short notice so for the next week, he may be scheduled but he's not going to be there at all! SO I'M GOING TO BE SCREWED! Anyways, that's really it. So BYE.

Ouch

Well, today I went biking at Ft. Custer with my dad, it was a lot of fun. I will tell you what we saw:
-we went by a little lake and saw several turtles getting sun on a few logs in the lake, like 8 of them, so I took a picture, and then dad and I took a picture of us on a log by a pretty flowery tree
-we saw a couple of swans in another lake, pretty big ones too
-we saw a snake, both him and me almost ran it over, but we didn't, so we went back and took a picture of that too, it tried to look bigger and scarier by widening it's neck to make itself look more like a cobra or something, I swear that when I went by it the first time it had it's mouth open about to bite me, but it didn't.
-also saw a beaver dam, really big, but didn't see any beavers...kind of wished we would've, that would've been interesting
-once we got off the 2-tracker, which was in the first 15 minutes of riding, we noticed that they had burned all the underbrush, for atleast 2 miles, but since both dad and I were wearing yellow-tinted sunglasses, it didn't look as depressing until we took them off...very black, it was just done a week ago.

Surprisingly, there was next to nobody on the trail, we only passed 2 people with a dog walking, so it didn't slow us down too bad. We took the green loop, mostly, at the beginning, we were on a small part of the red loop with was just the trenches, which is great fun, my favorite small easy part...didn't go near granny's garden or the crazy beaver loop where my tree was or anything like that, but it was a lot of fun, and my butt hurts so I know that it was fun, my legs will hurt tomorrow, my butt worse, but that's ok, because it was a lot of fun. I think my mom was kind of jealous, not just because we were biking, that was only part of it, because my dad was talking to her on his cell phone, and he had said "well it's father-daughter day..." and so I said "if she feel jealous, tell her that if she wants we can go spend time together at the mall or something..." ha yeah ok...maybe some time, but I'd need my own money first, atleast a little bit of it.
well, I'm tired and I want to go sit and read my book or something. I would love to sit on something squishy for a while...not that bike seat.

My daddy

Ya know, this morning I was thinking about how this coming Wednesday I will be going biking at Ft. Custer with my daddy. Having a little Miranda-daddy day. He called me this morning and said that Wednesday was okay-ed for him to have it off so we could spend the better part of the day just me and him. After I hung up with him, I just kind of sat there and thought about it for a minute. I tried to put myself in his shoes, if I were him and I had a daughter like me, I would want to try and be a part of my daughter's life too. I know I moved out, and I know I don't get to see my parents as much as I'd like to, but I am fully aware I'm not a little kid anymore, and my parents' schedule doesn't revolve around me anymore like it did when I was a kid. And since I'm trying to make it out in the real world, and they're just trying to live a good life and try to be apart of my life. Which I can only imagine is hard, since I'm either working or cleaning the house, or taking care of Tony's brothers or something...But I do try, when ever my mom asks us to come over for dinner, I always try and make it so both Tony and I can come, sometimes we can't just because of Rebecca's schedule, but most of the time, we can, and we play euchre and my mom always tries to make sure she cooks comfort food or something I like. Since my parents are at the bike shop a lot, I always try and stop by there and see them when I have a chance so I can say hi to them and talk to them and see what's going on in their lives, just because I like to know. It's almost odd, I realized the other day that I call them or talk to them almost every day, weather I call them or they call me, but then after I continued to think about it, I wondered if they knew I was grateful for all the stuff they do for me, like how my dad wants to go and pay my medical bill, and fix my truck, whatever the case is, they always help me out, not just because I can't do it myself, don't get me wrong, I don't expect my parents to always help me out, I could do it on my own, but it would be very hard, but I could do it, but they just do because I am who I am. I am my parents daughter. I'm glad my parents are who they are; I see other kids parents and I am glad my dad is who he is and my mom is who she is. My dad has given me 2 cars and bought me 1, and with all the stuff that parents have done for me, I could never repay them.

But I am looking forward to going biking with my dad this Wednesday, just to be able to spend time with him and talk to him about everything and while doing so, I will probably think back to all the times when I was little and was a "daddy's girl", like when we'd go to the Christmas tree place and my mom and him would find a tree that they'd think they'd like and my dad would put his glove on top so they could keep looking but know that they liked that tree. I like thinking about the little things that made me happy back then.

Well, I guess all I'm really trying to say is that I appreciate my parents, and I love them and I'm glad that they are mine.

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Alright, nothing has been going on in my life, execpt for the fact that i'm friggin' bored with no life. I have no female friends in my own state. It kind of sucks. I have my Ginger Marrie, and Sarah and I are kind of patching stuff up... But the only spiffy new thing that is going on in my life is: DARCEY IS GETTING A NEW JOB! She's getting a job at the new metal roofing place as a secretary basically...answering phones, paperwork, that kind of crap. Which means that she'll be leaving Pizza Hut! Or atlest she says she may come back on a weekend or two...but that's not too bad...hardly any Darcey. Speaking of Darcey, the last "Rocky" party, she was really really drunk, and it was funny because #1, she was talking to me about I-----I far away from my face...and #2, she laid her head on my boob because she said her head was heavy...then she laid her head on my lap...then she decided she had to pee. It was odd.

Very odd.

Holy Crap

WELL, I HAVE SOME AWESOME NEWS!!! I will try not to go into too much detail, but *clears throat* here it goes:

I need a new job. If you didn't already know that, then where the heck have you been? I work at Pizza Hut for god sakes! So about a month and a half ago, I went to the employment group because it was the slacker way to find a new job since I really didn't have the time to do anything else...And, 2 Thursdays ago, I called employment group and asked if they had anything open for me to attempt to proceed for a job. I emphasized "Spartan Motors" because, duh, daddy has worked there for like 27 years and I've wanted to work there for a long time...I had explained to the chick that my dad is like one of the top 6 or 7 people there who has worked at Spartan Motors the longest...Which is pretty dang good, I think. She recommended that I should ask him to put in a good word for me to the chick who hires people...Since Spartan only hires through employment group...And next time she called looking for new people, she'd put me on the list...So, I called daddy, and asked him if he would put in a word for me...Then Friday, he called me and said "she said she could possible find you a pretty good job...You just need to put in your resume..." I don't have a resume...Until Sunday, when daddy helped me fill one out...And today, Monday, daddy gave it to the Karen chick who hires people and hopefully tomorrow, when Tony and I go to dinner at mom and daddy's house he'll have good news for me! Or hey, my cell number is on the top of the resume maybe she'll go straight to me. THAT WOULD BE AWESOME. I'd but my 2 weeks in like as soon as I possible could...I might wait a while...Like I'd put it in on April 20th (4-20) because that's the day I hired into pizza hut, and as of that day, I get a weeks paid vacation..So I'd take one of my 2 weeks notice as a weeks paid vacation...THAT would be killer....I'm excited...I hope somebody calls me...

Oh, yeah, Ginger, I have a question, why don't you like people who use Google? Just curious...

I accept cash, checks, money orders...sorry, no credit cards.

Well, to add to more crap in my life, i just thought i should let all of you know my bills. Sure, it's personal, but so you can get the full frigging extent of my life right now, the bills are quite a big part of it...HERE WE GO KIDS!!!

1st bill: Legacy Parke; because Tom and Sarah were my roommates, we are splitting the bill...which is EXACTLY $3010. So that's $1505 each. Sarah has promised me that once her and Tom got to Illinois and started working, that every one of her pay checks were going to me. They'd keep Toms and give me hers to pay off their half of the bill. They've been down there since the end of Janurary. Have I seen a penny? No. Even Sarah's mom told me I will probably be paying it alone. That sucks.

2nd bill: Phone; it will be going down as of tomorrow, I am cutting back on minutes because of all of my bills. Right now they are charging me about $100 +/- a month...normally +...

3rd bill: Emergency Room; if you read a previous blog, I did go into the hospital...reguardless, so i don't go into long detail, i owe $2095. (STUPID CATSCAN!)

4th bill: Car Insurance; my lovely parents, in my time of need, told me about 3 or 4 weeks ago that they could hardly aford the insurance for their Taurus, my brown truck, and their new Explorer...and that my insurance for my truck would be ending at the end of Feburary. So on the 24th, I had to purchuse my own car insurance, which, surprisingly is only $103.something a month...not too bad, but with all my other bills, it sucks...

5th bill: Most recent ticket; since i had my accident, i owe $111 for that stupid thingy so i still have to figure that out too...if I go tomorrow and talk to them they'll let me pay like $20 every 2 weeks...so that's $40 a month...for almost 3 months...

6th bill: Living Expences or "Rent"; because I live with Rebecca and Tony, it's not really free...other than chores and watching Tony's little brothers, I have a few other things I get to take care of...the sbc bill...which includes the phone line and internet...and the Cable TV...normally both add up together to be about $200 every 2 months.

I also have to put gas in my truck, food in my kitty's belly, and buy the things i need every day, like make up, shampoo, "girly things" when necessary. So lets add up my bills per month:

1. minimum of $100 to Legacy Parke

2. minimum of $75 for cell phone (after I cut down on minutes)

3. figuring $20 minimum after I finally call and straighten it out

4. $103.change for Car insurance

5. $40 for stupid ticket

6. approximately $200 for gas, cable, phone and necessities.

Add that together and I get $538 per month. (For the first 3 months, then it will go down to $498 per month.) Now lets figure out what I make per 2 weeks: Lately, i've been getting crappy hours, so I've brought home for the last 3 pay checks about $245. That's only $490 per month. BUT you include TIPS, which, if i think about it...hold on...need calculator...ok, i'm back...i make maybe if i'm lucky $100 in tips per week...so if i figure that into my pay checks, that's still only $445 per 2 weeks...you'd think that would be enough, right? Then WHERE THE HELL IS MY MONEY GOING? Oh, wait, I know, i suck at math, and i'm guessing at literally all of this because if i was really making that much per month I would not be bitching. I've even stopped eating fast food. GINGER, i stopped eating McDonalds! Because if i had the money, i'd be paying the stupid people back! I can't even aford the stupid dollar menu! What the hell!?!?!?!?!?!

I have no money right now. I have less that half a tank of gas, and i work tomorrow. Friday. Busy day. And I don't get paid until next Friday. Which I already promised Legacy Parke $100 of that, and I have to pay my phone bill, and i need to pay off that ticket, and i need to call the hospital people and straighten things out. OH MY GOD! I FORGOT A BILL! Because I got a ticket for speeding 5 over the limit, they also got me for not having proof of insurance when i was driving Tony's truck. Since it was Tony's fault, i wanted him to call his dad, to make a long story short, i paid the ticket anyway, even though it was wavable, but now the stupid government is charging me $200 that i have to pay in a month or they will suspend my licence. It's less than a month now, it's like maybe 22 days. Whatever. As I said, I take cash, check, money orders, but sorry, my ass crack is not somewhere for you to slide your credit card. Almost wish it was, if i was getting money out of it...(no i'm not a whore. I promise. I'm just really desperate.)